GoodBye 148

I am 131.5 on most days, which is impressive, I lost 10 pounds, some days a little more, some days a little less. I am doing mostly good, I have my moments that I hate to talk about. I will never go back to the old way I lived, but I no longer feel the need to tell you how I am doing, instead I am focusing my attention on my other loves in life, my daughter and photography. Please join me here and I will randomly update you with how things are going. I still want to lose another 2-3 pounds but I can't complain with what I have now, I have to be happy with who I am no matter what, otherwise I will never be there and will always be saying I need to do more, need to eat less, need to do this and that. I looked in the mirror this morning before jumping into the shower and I liked me, I liked how I looked and I like how I feel, both physically and mentally. Emotionally I still struggle like most people do, I printed off a coupon for Ben & Jerry's - well it WAS a good coupon, $1.00 off two but I didn't buy them, I did however buy the butterfinger candy bar that was waiting for me at the register and I did eat it all, and then I had a cupcake, but again, no more about me and how I am doing because I don't want to discourage anyone, and I didn't mention that I had a great workout earlier that morning and ate great the rest of the day. I am still focusing on healthy eating, small portion, exercise and a sense of happiness. I thank you for struggling with me while I somehow got through the worse month and hope you continue to stay on your path. Like I said I will still be blogging, but my focus has shifted, I hope you enjoy the change.

10 +

Somehow I lost the last half pound and another half pound. I don't know why really, I haven't been pushing myself and I have been cheating a little - well cheating is too harsh, we can call it relaxing some. Kris and I had a small portion dinner last night, went to the park and walked/ran a little, then we went to a thrift store and walked around, then a flea market and then a dollar store and next to the dollar store was a Dairy Queen but we did not go in like we had subconsciously planned, instead we went into subway and ordered 6 inch subs. I know - we already had dinner 2 hours earlier but we were hungry and subs sounded good. We didn't get mayo so it wasn't that bad and we didn't eat the whole sandwich either. Most of it but not all of it. I finished uploading some good songs into my iPod in hopes it would make working out easier in the morning and I think it did the trick, I had a great 20 minute work-out this morning. I have a pocket in my shorts that I slid the iPod into, I need to figure something else out or wear the same shorts each day. I plan on finding a few more songs today, I only have 33 on there right now. I need some good happy pumping up music!

3 More Crazy Pounds!

Where have I been - I am still here, still struggling to lose the last 5 pounds, or actually just another half pound so I can be at an even -10. It is getting harder because I have basically lost most of the extra weight and I want to relax but I have to keep at it or it will just come back to me. I crave cookies and ice cream and so does Kris, luckily we don't have the cravings on the same night, that has saved us many trips to Dairy Queen. Overall we are still eating in, we did cheat on Saturday but we all 3 shared a sampler platter, it was still too much food. I can't believe how much money we are saving by eating home and the food is good, I am adjusting our weekly menu to consist of the dinners we enjoy. We bought a new electric oven thing that should allow me to bake a few more things without having to heat up the entire house since the weather is warmer. We made hot dogs and cookies in it, yes I said cookies, it was a bad night and I only ate 2, actually we only baked 5, Summer had 1, the dogs each had one so Summer wouldn't eat the other 2. They really were not that good either but of course I still ate them. Working out is a pain now, the workout is so long and hard neither one of us want to get up and do it, Kris didn't even get up today and I didn't do the DVD I decided to walk around the neighborhood. I jogged for a small portion of the walk, I guess my heart was pumping and I did get hot and sweaty. Maybe we need a new DVD, I am not sure but we are at a point of unhappiness with the whole routine. I don't know what to do, getting up isn't that bad because I wake up before the alarm goes off anyway, so maybe I do need a new DVD. We are planning on going to the Grand Canyon for Father's Day on Sunday and we will pack our own food, we can do it, we are still on track just not as hard core as we were in the beginning. I don't want to totally convert back to being unhealthy large portion eaters. Kris bought more fat burning pills and started drinking some grapefruit juice and has actually broken through his plateau, maybe I will try some grapefruit juice next week too and see if it helps me get rid of this last little bit. I want to see 129, heck 129.5 would work, I have 3 pounds to go!

Still here

I am still here, still waking up at 5:30 and working out, at least this morning, I missed the last 4 days but I still ate mostly healthy, all except for Sunday, we went to Disneyland and I walked for 8 hours so the funnel cake and ice cream I had for dinner was a one time treat that I don't regret. I am still down 9 pounds as of this morning so I don't think I suffered much for the small set back and really you can't be totally strict forever or you will fail, you need to be able to make small mistakes, or small indulgences and move on and not feel bad. I didn't regret the yummy park food one bit. It could have been worse and I know I am still on track, I have my goals, I enjoy working out (for the most part) and I enjoy eating healthy and vegetables are my friend as is small portions. I figure I am on the last 5 pounds, these are the pounds that count, the pounds that are going to test me but I am in no hurry, they will fly off eventually so until then I will continue living a healthier lifestyle and feel better doing it!

Much Better

I feel SO much better today, we got up and did a good workout. I don't know why I was in such a funk yesterday, I guess it just happens from time to time. I also did an extra 15 push-ups at work just now, go me! I am still up half a pound but I am not worried about it, it will go away eventually, unless it is muscle then it may stay around which is ok too. I feel good about myself today, my stomach looks better, my legs look good, I feel great, I am eating healthy vegetables every single day, life is good. I won't lie, I still get cravings, I was talking to Aunt Wendy last night and she mentioned grandma had made another coconut cake, I was so glad that she is in Oklahoma and I am in Nevada, that cake is almost irresistible.

Wanna stop?

This hasn't been the best week so far, I have barely managed to crawl out of bed all week - but at least I am still eating good. I don't know why I have been so tired, I have been going to bed around 8:30/9:00 but when that alarm rings in the morning at 5:30 I just don't want to get up and Kris doesn't help because he never gets up first. It is even light out and I am sleeping great so I know I am not tired, I would never be able to fall back to sleep anyway so what is my deal? We did manage to make it out of bed this morning and we started working out (half ass on my part) but ended up quitting about 5-10 minutes early because, well I don't know why, we saw dog puke on the floor but its not like it had to be cleaned up right then. I wasn't feeling it and I guess Kris wasn't either. I think Kris has hit a plateau which has him discouraged and I am just so tired in the morning. We lay in bed and talk about how we wish we had ice cream and watch the food network. Kris mentioned there were Dove chocolates in the top of the closet still, I told him I would eat one if he would get it but we both agreed the top of the closet was way to far to go so we just laid there watching tv with a frown on our faces. It has been a month, it is easier overall but maybe the new killer workout routine has us feeling a bit blue, this routine is longer, more cardio and it simple hurts. It will get easier I know, but for now I would rather complain and feel better.

8

I like the number 8 today because I have lost a total of 8 pounds! Sometimes I feel like I look GREAT, like today, I feel like I have done it, I am there. I have a few more pounds to go but I don't think it will take long anymore. And then there are those days that make me think I am crazy and still flabby. I put on a very tight bathing suit on Saturday and that didn't help. On Sunday I put on a suit that actually fit and felt SO much better, in fact it was big on me, the bottoms anyway. I don't know how much more I will lose, my goal was 10 pounds but I bet I have another 5 in me. Can you imagine being 120 something, seems so high school to me. I have a feeling I can do it, that is only like 4 more pounds. Still eating decent, small portions, snacks, drinking water, working out each morning for about 30+ minutes. We kicked up our workout and OUCH my back, my knee, my lungs! It really almost seems to easy as this point. I feel like I am still overeating now and I don't think I am doing enough in the mornings. Yet I am still losing so I guess I am doing good. I had a good little cheat incident yesterday, 4 or 5 bites of ice cream before I finally threw the container out yesterday. I blame it on my monthly hormones, they are always up to no good anyway.