Dance Dance Revolution

Kris was such a nice guy, he found his old playstation 2 and hooked it up for me. I put the Dance Dance Revolution CD in, after 10 minutes I was soaking wet, I had sweat on my head down to my toes. It was so much fun, Summer had a blast watching me. I started it Tuesday and have danced at least 10 minutes each night since. I can do it with Summer, I held her for two of the songs, that is an extra 23 pounds, and she loves it. I plan on keeping it up, maybe looking into the new wii fit game. I have been eating better, no more junk, but not as good as I could so I will continue to work on it.

It could be worse ...

... but not much. I ate so horrible the past 4 days, and crap I just had 4 donut holes, who brought those! I didn't eat anything good over Memorial Day weekend, and I haven't started today off the best. I did not work out and have no energy today, but I am still going to try to get myself back on track, remember it isn't about loosing weight, it is about eating healthy food! I think it was boredom, I was in Idaho, there wasn't much to do, food sounded fun, soda, cookies, ice cream, chips, it all made the weekend fun and exciting. I didn't get a chance to go shopping so I didn't have much to eat for work, which is not a good excuse because there is a grocery store within walking distance, the donuts were just a bad moment. I have to do better, I can do better!

still here

I am still here, trying to eat healthy and get in shape, I did ... so so this weekend. I was not a superstar but I didn't revert back to my old ways. On Friday night we had taco bell, I ordered two soft chicken tacos with extra lettuce. On Saturday a friend came over and we ordered chinese food so I had the chicken and veetables, and I didn't eat my rice. I made pasta ravioli for dinner and ate a smaller portion than normal. Watching TV in bed with Kris, I ate about 30 or 40 skittles, and then got my yogurt ice cream, but I only ate about 1/5 of the container (Ben & Jerry size). I did have bad thoughts, they said to be happy with my fat body, food makes me happy, who cares what I look like, food is the key to happiness, but I tried to ignore them and I do feel better today. I did walk on Saturday and this morning but I have a problem. At 9:00 this morning it was already too hot to walk, it was 89 degrees. At 7:00 in the evening on Saturday night is was also miserable. I can try to walk later when it is dark but Summer might already be asleep. I guess I will just have to see how it goes, I am not having much luck with any cardio. On another note I am going to make a chiropractor appointment on Monday, that sounds like fun, maybe it will adjust some fat loose!

well ...

145.2 which is good, it is a loss and eating healthy and working out is not about loosing weight, it is about getting healthy, but I really thought I would have lost more, I expected to lose 10 pounds, and I guess this means the scale at work and my home scale are off a bit, quite a bit. I am not going to stress about the pounds, I feel better and my stomach is already flatter. This weekend I am going to try to do more outside, I want to set up an obstacle course of some sort, maybe my step and a jump rope. I can put Summer somewhere, on a blanket, and try to do 10-15 minutes to keep me active, plus if it is fun and right in my backyard, I can do that right?!?

this is fun

I am still doing great, eating healthier smaller foods, experimenting with some new vegetables, I cut up two baked potatoes, french fry shapes, soaked them in water for an hour and baked them on 350 for 40 minutes, they were yum! I put them in the fridge and plan on using them as lunches for Summer, and I ate a few myself. This morning Kris made french toast and I used yogurt and fresh strawberries as the topping, it was good, I am starting to like plain non fat yogurt. I had string cheese for a snack today and a few pretzels. I bought a summer .. or was it winter .. squash that I need to fix up, I have to get creative and stop using the oven because it is suppose to be 99 degrees on Sunday so baking will make the kitchen too hot. I am feeling confident and in about 10 minutes I will get weighed, hopefully my home scale and the scale at work will be the same and I will have something happy to report. Wish me luck!

HMMM

Ok so I weighed yesterday and was shocked to see a number I was not expecting. I had to weight, I had to figure out how much Summer weighed and she doesn't stand on the scale by herself yet. I bet you want to know what the number is - but I am not going to tell you, you will have to wait until Friday when I get weighed on the same scale I weighed last Friday to make sure things are as they should be!
For dinner last night I made something new, something super yummy and awesome, chicken parmigiana. This was grandma's recipe, but I never made it because she told me about it in November 2006, and I was pregnant and sick right after, so I just forgot about it. It was SO easy, pan cook pieces of chicken, get a baking dish and add half a jar of spaghetti sauce, then add the cooked chicken, add the rest of the spaghetti sauce, and add a bag or parmigiana cheese, eat it over noodles (I made angel hair). It was so yummy I had to watch my portion size, I could have eaten three times the amount. I will no longer be cooking spaghetti with hamburger meat!
Kris was eating snacks in bed last night, sunflower seeds and candy, but not me, I resisted! And I have been walking each day, I take Summer and the dogs around the block. It isn't intensive but it is a start. I really feel good about myself, I even resisted bagels at work this morning. I thought about cutting one in half, taking that half and cutting it in half, and then cutting that half into half, but by that time it seemed pointless so I didn't bother. I have challenges ahead of me, my trip to Idaho over Memorial Day weekend will be rough, but I think I can do it. I have to think of food as a nutrient my body needs, and not something that taste yummy.

I DID IT

yesterday was an excellent eating day. I had my oatmeal, dried cherries and almond slices, orange juice and coffee, for a snack I had pretzels and a spoonful of peanut butter, for lunch I had tuna and crackers, and for dinner I had fresh tomato slices, steamed fresh broccoli, roast and potatoes, and I limited my portion size. I wasn't hungry before bed, which was a plus! I did not feel good yesterday either, I have been depressed or under the weather. The weather is actually gloomy, windy and dusty, so maybe that's why. I wasn't going to drink coffee today but I am hoping it will help my energy level. Wish me luck.

Going Strong

Well I guess I have made it three days, or two and a half. Yesterday Kris decided to grill out, I bought some fillet mignon, shrimp and a green and yellow bell pepper. I did not know how yummy peppers are once grilled, nice soft and sweet! The shrimp was delicious as was the steak. I didn't eat anything else last night so I would consider yesterday a success! Oh I did have two bites of Kris's ice cream, let's not forget about that, I don't want to appear perfect. Back to work this morning with new challenges. I made plain oatmeal - just 1 packet this time, and added dried cherries and some almond slices. It was good, I ate it all. I also had orange juice on the way to work, and I drank coffee, but less than normal. I am drinking water, I always need to drink more water. I have a small bag of pretzels at my desk that I need to eat around 10:45-11:00, and for lunch I have tuna and crackers. I brought an apple to eat with peanut butter for my afternoon snack, and for dinner I am planning on roast, mashed potatoes and fresh steamed broccoli. I have to watch my portions at dinner, but overall I am still encouraged and doing good. I even went for a walk around 7:30 last night, I took Summer and the dogs and we went a little further. I know I am out of shape but my dogs are worse off than I am, so I am trying to get them back into shape.

who knew?

Apples and Peanut Butter is a delicious snack, I normally don't like the peel but I ate every bit of it, and whole wheat waffles with low fat plain yogurt and strawberries is very doable. It was different tasting when you expect the sweet syrup but I think I liked it. Yesterday I did great, I went to a birthday party for 1 year olds and did not eat cake or have soda. I did catch myself eating in bed, but it was brussel sprouts so I am not going to be too hard on myself. I already feel 5 pounds lighter, but I am not going to weight until Friday, actually Tuesday because I have to find out how much Summer weighs, I take my weight and hold her and subtract the difference, she turns 10 months. Maybe I will try to put her on the scale on her own if she will stand there. I did not go for a walk last night but I plan on going shopping this morning with Summer, our new Mother's Day tradition, and I will try again tonight because Summer doesn't have a bath tonight. I am really happy with the food right now, I am trying to eat one meal and plan out the next snack and meal. For snack today I will eat either pretzels, or I got the new ritz and pretzel I can try. For lunch I am thinking another sandwich like the one I had yesterday, it was a whole wheat tortilla, cheese and today I will add turkey. Kris even liked it but it was a little dry, maybe I will add some mustard or low fat mayonnaise. I am trying to eat a veggie for lunch and dinner, so today it might be carrots for lunch and steamed broccoli or zucchini for dinner. I am also still trying to go "plastic free". I did order some new safe plastic plates and cups yesterday, until I can find a good replacement I need to get rid of the scary toxic ones we have. I am looking at bamboo and stainless steel as a replacement. I am also looking to find new toys for Summer, wooden or cloth, non scary plastics. I need to take some time and find some really good sites. I am happy and encouraged this morning, I can do this!

Shopping

My first shopping trip was a success. I was starving, so to say it was a success is really saying a lot. I had to tell myself a few times, "148" and I think that helped me stay motivated. I bought some of the same things as usual but really tried to think of new healthy snacks I can eat, apples, bananas, pretzels, yogurt, almonds, etc. I normally get 1 ice cream, so this time I got a non fat yogurt, I am sure it will taste good. After shopping it was late, and we hadn't had dinner, so we were both starving. We went through McDonald's, and I ordered 2 cheeseburgers, no onions, extra pickles. No fries and no soda. I scarfed them both down as soon as we got home, and of course felt guilty I ate two, but it will get easier and my stomach will start shrinking. I also took Summer and the dogs for a walk around 8:15 last night. I was really motivated, I even ran! Can you imagine what it looked like to run pushing a stroller and walking two dogs, all I could think about was the fat on my but giggling up and down. I didn't run for long, but enough to make me feel a little better about that second cheeseburger. Unlike other nights, I didn't fall asleep at 9:00 as soon as Summer was asleep, I think I had a little more energy and stayed up until 10:00. Summer even slept in until 6:45, she knew her mommy needed extra sleep I guess. I am not sure what I am going to have for lunch yet, I was thinking about a grill cheese sandwich or I bought some lunch meat and whole wheat pita bread. Oh well I am not hungry right now so I will figure it out later today.

Where to start

I have been attending weekly health classes during lunch at work, something my company has generously paid for. These classes offer tips and advice, and part of the class consists of weighing on a scale. I started the class 5 weeks ago weighting in at 144, I was down to 142 a week later, and now 5 weeks into the class I am weighting in at a whopping 148! I was 140 before I got pregnant which was about 5 pounds above what I would have liked. I remember when I weighted 120 back when I was 20, but 135 would be a great nice level weight for me to maintain. This means I need to lose about 10-12 pounds. This may not sound like much to you, but I am a small boned person and I have never had to watch my weight. Right now I do not eat well nor do I work out, so this is going to be hard. Why does life get hard when you get older, I never had to watch my weight before I turned 30!

Frankly it sucks butt, but, tis life, I have to make a change. I know better than to try to completely try to change everything I do, I will end up failing if I try that again, so I am going to make some small changes each week.

This week I am going to stop eating in bed. I know what you are thinking, what kind of person eats in bed? Since we got a big tv for our room we started eating on our bed. Not only do we eat meals, but we also snack. I am going to stop eating and drinking anything on our bed! I am going home and cleaning off the kitchen table and make a spot that is comfortable and sittable. Seriously, I shouldn't be eating dinner in bed anyway, so this should be an easy change.

I have to go grocery shopping this weekend, so I am also going to try to get some healthier snacks, yogurt, apples, bananas, granola, pretzels, etc. I love vegetables and I plan on buying fresh vegetables and actually eat them, I always buy them but they end up growing some pretty fussy stuff on them and when I find them in the fridge a month later, I have to throw it away.

I already blog weekly for Summer, and I have decided I am serious about this and one way to keep me honest and going - is to blog about it. I hope I can do it this time, but if I know you are reading and watching me, I might have more motivation. Who knows I may only make it a week and decide I like being fat and buying larger pants, let's be honest, it is easier to find larger pants in long anyway right? No - wrong attitude, I can't think like that anymore!